First, I want to thank you for being everything I needed during those specific times in my life.

Second, I want to thank you for walking away, allowing me to understand that I can do it on my own.

To anyone reading this, I want you all to know that she was and will always be one of the greatest people I have come to know. She got me through high school, and those were some of the hardest years of my life. She rubbed my back when no one else would, and not once was she ever tired of taking pictures with me. She would dance with me in the car and couldn’t care less who was watching. We would go on sushi runs, and ice cream dates knowing damn well neither of us should be eating ice cream, but we would go anyway. We would cry, laugh, sing, dance and live together for  a solid 3 years or so. Thank you.

Now, to “you”.

I want you to know I am not mad at you for walking out of my life. In fact, you did what you had to do for your own reasons. Maybe I was too caught up in the word best friend, maybe I tried too hard, maybe I changed over time (which is what time is for…change), maybe I talked too much or not enough, there are so many maybes that I can think of as to why you walked away from me. However, there is one thing I am certain of. I loved and still love you with every ounce that fills the vessel in which my soul lives. 

I do my best to be in the loop about all the great things you have done since we last spoke, but today I hit a wall. I realized that I can’t convince myself that we will one day be good friends again. I can’t change your “maybes,” into “I’m sorrys,” and I most definitely  can’t make you stay somewhere you already left. I will watch you go, and I will be proud of you for every step in the opposite direction because I know you, and I know that wherever you are going , you are going to do great things.

Thank you ex-best friend, for showing me that I can do this on my own. You have made me a stronger, braver, and wiser person since walking in the opposite direction, and for that, I will never be upset.