Chance Colleen

There is so much emphasis these days about “figuring it out”. What does that even mean? Do any of us really know how to figure it out? Much of my life has been one giant mess & if you have been following this blog since it’s birth in 2015 you know a little bit of…

I’m sorry for my absence the last (almost) 2 years. It’s not that I haven’t been writing, because I have. It’s just…I’ve also been trying to stay alive in the most literal sense of the word alive. March 15, 2021 I was diagnosed with the most aggressive type of Breast Cancer. It’s called Triple Negative…

A majority of my life has been a roller coaster ride with anxiety as my co-captain. I believe I was a really anxious kid growing up and have always been really emotional. I feel what everyone else around me is feeling and I make my own. As life continued and life events kept knocking me…

It was approximately 6:31am on the morning of July 26, 2011. That would be 9 years ago today. 9 years ago today was the day she left. She left and she wasn’t coming back. She left quickly, somewhat suddenly, but peacefully. She exited stage left before her song was over, but while she was here…

This bag is what I will refer to as a “placement bag” for this whole post. When a new foster child is placed in a home, this is the bag I take to them. Inside this placement bag is typically a blanket, a coloring book and crayons, a stuffed animal and a toothbrush. We do…

“Wait: Have you told the people you love that you love them? Have you gotten out of bed? Have you drunk enough water? Have you read something that wasn’t on a screen? Have you taken a moment to remember you are to you? This is a checklist for being human.” -Iain S. Thomas I’ve been…

I can’t believe I’ve already been here a month. A month ago I did the scariest thing of my life and packed up my little Toyota Camry and headed across the country. Truth be told-moving out here was entirely impulsive. I pretty much just decided one day that moving is what I wanted to do…

The hardest parts of our life often times feel like they are going to last forever. I know for many years of my life I thought this way. Whether the hard time really only last hours or a few days it felt like it was never going to end. The last 22 years of my life…

Over the last few months I have had such a busy heart. This heart of mine was begging for more adventure while pleading that I don’t make anymore changes in my life. I was longing for stillness while mentally having my bags packed for the next opportunity. I was making pro and con lists for…